Up late for the blood moon (today’s excuse).

Hasn’t been this quiet in my house since my dad died (two months ago today, now that I think about it). And even then our upstairs neighbor was being really loud. I remember that it made me angry.

And now it’s been super quiet since my mom and brother had another ugly falling out and I’m so used to their late night routine that the apparent tranquility is incredibly eerie.

Now my mom’s oxygen machine is on. Always on when she’s sleeping. And it’s only ever quiet when she’s sleeping. I guess that’s what was the missing piece because the white noise is calming. I was feeling really anxious (restless?) on top of feeling generally terrible.

Reminds me of summer break, when I was living by myself at my grandma’s old place and I just felt empty. No reason to get out of bed. No cat to dote over. No brother to resent. No mom to despise and simultaneously desperately want to please.

My dad was just two floors up, but he could never get me out of bed. Now I have no dad to not get me out of bed. Or something. Sometimes I think voluntarily think about my regrets but mostly I don’t since everyone left seems to think “reminding you of things you did wrong” is good small talk. I mean, what else would we talk about during family dinners?

This Klaus Nomi video made me very happy. Very briefly.

And now the sky is just one big blanket of clouds so I’m going to call it quits, maybe fall asleep on my couch and feel all sore while I indulge in a little self-loathing tomorrow. All of this “healthy adult behavior” has got me so wound up that I feel sick.

spiderlillian

spiderlillian:

broujo:

spiderlillian:

broujo:

broujo:

"homophobic? kill yourself"

the pinnacle of irony

relevant post from last year

at some point the good intentions that form the basis for some people’s opinions become drowned in this murky sludge of ugly conduct.

tumblr would wage war against Gandhi given the opportunity.

I love a stimulating conversation. I love to have someone change my mind or even made feel embarrassed. Healthy clash is a good thing and the world around us is forever evolving, and I want to observe and learn and grow as much as my short lifespan will let me. I like the way I am. My opinions aren’t perfect and my feelings are problematic, but I will never lose my strength or nobility.

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Alright, I usually laugh at bullshit drama on the sidelines and don’t get directly involved because I’m horrible at debating (and will gladly let others take over from here), but I’ve been watching all of this since last night and nah, nah, sit down, we need to have a talk about some of the things you’ve said.

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For one, I am really happy that you acknowledged that this was a personal post.

Everything else about this is sorta exhausting for several reasons but I’ve been told not to share my sob story so just let me get back to you on it.

One thing, though, that made me very upset that people misunderstood: The whole “people abuse other people everyday.” I hate that I have to make it clear but this is NOT about sexual abuse. Emotional abuse? Happening every day (and you are most likely guilty of it!) without so much as a slap on the wrist. People hurting other people isn’t a thing you can police outside of institution of law and any attempt just breeds more suffering. I’m not the best at phrasing things, but sorry for not being more specific at first. It was kinda just a throwaway line because I was not responding with patience and seriousness to “EAT MY ASS.” My mistake, I suppose.

Goodnight.

Thank you for explaining. Just to get this out of the way:

  • If “I’ve been told not to share my sob story” refers to my statement about how your experiences were none of my business, it was just my way of claiming that it is not my place to pry into your personal life. If not, then never mind.
  • I stand by my belief that pretty much everyone who called you out had every damn right to, but I just wanna make it clear that, no, I do not think think people telling you to kill yourself or dox you or harass you or whatever falls under justified anger, and it’s uncalled for.

I got a notification on my phone that you liked the post before you deleted and remade your account, so I knew you at least saw it. However, you didn’t mention it when you remade while you were addressing everybody else’s, so I just though that was kinda interesting at the time.

But nah, I just wanted to see if any of it actually got through to you. To be honest, I didn’t think much of it would because you seem like you stick to your guns, but I thought maybe some of it would help.

Aaaand judging from gems such as “[Akio and Josiahfiles] are villains in works of fiction,” and the time you accused my friend of being worse than a sexual predator because ”at least [josiahfiles] admitted he was wrong” (despite the fact that, although my friend was a little hostile, she was justifiably angry that you were so hell-bent on defending a predator), I’m

uh

gonna assume that I wasted my time here, holy shit, lady.

lmao i’m washing my hands of this BYE

PS: It would probably be best if you stayed off Bolton’s blog.

"Sob story" thing had nothing to do with what you said. I personally don’t think you wasted your time.

I may stick to my guns with some things (for example, I still think that this whole mess is hilarious considering the “incriminating evidence”), but the whole “enjoying healthy clash” wasn’t all talk. I appreciate what you had to say although I do not agree entirely.

spiderlillian

spiderlillian:

broujo:

broujo:

"homophobic? kill yourself"

the pinnacle of irony

relevant post from last year

at some point the good intentions that form the basis for some people’s opinions become drowned in this murky sludge of ugly conduct.

tumblr would wage war against Gandhi given the opportunity.

I love a stimulating conversation. I love to have someone change my mind or even made feel embarrassed. Healthy clash is a good thing and the world around us is forever evolving, and I want to observe and learn and grow as much as my short lifespan will let me. I like the way I am. My opinions aren’t perfect and my feelings are problematic, but I will never lose my strength or nobility.

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Alright, I usually laugh at bullshit drama on the sidelines and don’t get directly involved because I’m horrible at debating (and will gladly let others take over from here), but I’ve been watching all of this since last night and nah, nah, sit down, we need to have a talk about some of the things you’ve said.

Read More

For one, I am really happy that you acknowledged that this was a personal post.

Everything else about this is sorta exhausting for several reasons but I’ve been told not to share my sob story so just let me get back to you on it.

One thing, though, that made me very upset that people misunderstood: The whole “people abuse other people everyday.” I hate that I have to make it clear but this is NOT about sexual abuse. Emotional abuse? Happening every day (and you are most likely guilty of it!) without so much as a slap on the wrist. People hurting other people isn’t a thing you can police outside of institution of law and any attempt just breeds more suffering. I’m not the best at phrasing things, but sorry for not being more specific at first. It was kinda just a throwaway line because I was not responding with patience and seriousness to “EAT MY ASS.” My mistake, I suppose.

Goodnight.

bolto

bolto:

she somehow made her way onto my blog and idk how bcuz i literally do not exist in tumblr

INCREDIBLE

Checking up on one or two gals a little too often has become my recent pastime, yeah, although it’s not like I ever run out of things to respond to. Plus, y’see, tumblr is, uh….looking at people’s blogs is kinda the point?

Anyway

1) Sorry, does halibutton want my attention too? I’m pretty sure I’ve never reblogged anything of hers and I’m not sure I get what she’s talking about and I am actually kinda confused??

2) I read spiderlillian’s post… Apparently I’m tenacious enough to keep up with some people’s bullshiitery, but not enough to find that particular post and respond to it directly at the moment. Sorry if they seemed to want me to respond instead of quietly acknowledge it. I took their commentary about my tone to heart but that’s about all I remember.

I’m about to go to sleep and not feeling very feisty, but I’m still here and listening so keep on truckin.

weeaboo-chan

Anonymous asked:

but killbenedictcumberbatch wasn't talking about any old flag they're talking about the CONFEDERATE flag

itsmydarkesthour answered:

OH NOES! I’d forgotten that the Confederate flag was the harbinger of doom and created by Lucifer himself while drowning kittens in the blood of sacrificed virgins!!

Seriously, it’s just a flag that to some people holds strong cultural and familial significance. That’s all. Are some people racist? Sure! Does racism have anything to do with a piece of colorful cloth? Hell no!

Now what did we learn? We learned not to judge people without first getting to know them. Right? Right.

weeaboo-chan:

killbenedictcumberbatch:

homura-for-justice:

killbenedictcumberbatch:

look at this trashcan

Oh dear, someone has an opinion you don’t like.

Call them trash. That’ll fix em.

unfollow me you pustule 

i am shitting BLOOD

Your attitude will get you more than hemorrhoids at this rate.

plebcomics

Anonymous asked:

YOU were an SJW?! There's hope! PS: Post more Laguna pics.

plebcomics answered:

yes. what a lot of sjws wont tell you is that a lot of their BS is purely emotionally driven and comes from a deep deep sense of self-loathing. its legitimately less about the cause youre screaming, hooting and hollering for (although most sjw sentiments come from a good and honest place) and more just about… being able to scream and hoot and holler at others because MAN does it feel good to be a belligerent asshole while simultaneously being able to hide behind the whole “ITS FOR SOCIAL JUSTICE!!!1” veil, while also feeding into that whole persecution/martyr complex when people try and call you out on your bullshit

anyway, laguna the big kahuna coming right up






bolto

Anonymous asked:

i will bet you that broujo dude posted you on stormfront or some shit.

bolto answered:

lmfao wouldn’t surprise me

You and anon are very bad judges of character. I’m pretty sure I made it a huge point that I’m not a fan of ugly words. I don’t enjoy anyone being the recipient of them.

I don’t get what anyone gains by saying this, but okay?

weeaboo-chan

broujo asked:

My condolenses for what you're going through because of weeaboo-chan and people like her. She pretends that only she can pick who the victims are and then makes a victim out of anyone she disagrees with and can't rationally persuade.

midnightsnackattiffanys answered:

Thank you, love! I’ve got loads more hate about my own opinion of where I’m from, and I thought this was going to be more, but this just made me smile! Thank you!

weeaboo-chan:

wow, a miracle, broujo returns! sorry for assuming you were a dude earlier, broujo, my mistake. you’re still a gross piece of shit who made excuses for a guy who asked a 15 year old for nudes.

i guess i can add ‘racist’ to your list of shimmering accolades along with ‘pedophile apologist’. cool

weeaboo-chan.

olivia.

listen to yourself.

I’m so sorry that you have all of these followers that agree with you. It really is unhealthy and I wonder what has caused this anomaly. These cult-like levels of nonsense mob mentality.

To sum this up: I am being called a racist for acknowledging that attacking someone’s person because of their opinions is despicable.

Said nothing related to this flag business because I am reserving the right to not give a shit. I understand that standing up for someone accused of a sexual crime makes things muddy (human interest and whatnot) but THIS. IS. AMAZING.

Attacking anyone the way you do is never justified, but it just makes my blood simmer to see you and your pals do this to midnightsnackattiffanys. I needed to let her know that, yes, there is someone on her side and that the world is not all going to shit, because that’s exactly what happens when someone like your small, sad self has power over others. You will never acknowledge the kind of suffering you generate. You are sick. Worse than the worst that you prey on. I’m letting what I say get a little personal because it’s this kind of shit, everyone, that I really actually genuinely care about.

I will not let you intimidate anyone into silence.

deviantwatch

deviantwatch:

deviantwatch:

notmikey:

i was sexually harassed for 6 months by tumblr user josiahfiles (from when i was 15-16 years old, him being 19/20) i feel horrified by even the concept of posting this, but my being underage and being bullied and cajoled for sexually explicit pictures of myself (in the end he manipulated me into sending him a sexually explicit photo of myself, which i continue to feel gross and unsafe about), i feel like this is the right thing to do

ive told friends of mine about this, but never publicly, and so ive been really kind of scared to come out about this- but ive talked to some friends and i’ve decided to (FINALLY) talk about it, because it’s gross and i know his harassment went on to other girls (of whom i will not name for safety reasons), as well as him using the situation for pity. i want everyone to be made aware that he will manipulate you into feeling somewhat safe, before sexually harassing you

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obviously there are worse logs, with him bullying and cajoling me into sending him pictures of my vagina (after which i blocked him on my phone), however i don’t have them as i don’t want to re add him to my contacts for the logs to sync up

i feel really fucked up about it and in some part of my head i feel like this is still my fault, however he was the one coming onto a minor, he manipulated me and made me feel like he would hate me if i didn’t respond to him in a sexual manner

im not sure what else to say, i feel very sick about this and i know theres more to add, but i just want this out in the open because he is a sexual predator, and i dont want anyone to experience what i have with him

THE NIGHT WILL NEVER END

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Can You Believe That This Was What Started It All